Musical Lifestyle

I have always had a passion for music ever since I was a little kid. As the years progressed, my unwavering search for more music, with deeper meanings and better sound, has only grown sevenfold what it used to be. Music takes us away from everything, to whatever we want. We can relate with the artist and find comfort in knowing that someone else deals with the same problems as us, whatever they may be. For me, instrumental music has infatuated me. It's like opening a blank canvas in your mind and turning it into whatever you want it to be. A dark, hopeless place. A bright beautiful field. You are the artist.... Make it whatever you want. Music has become my life. Maybe it is my second life, where I go to escape the struggles of the real one. Here is a few artists among the instrumental genre that i have been introduced to over the years. They are all incredible in their own ways.

Explosions in the Sky

Caspian

The Red Sparrowes

Russian Circles

65 days of static

There are plenty more, but these just happen to be my favorites. 

Hateless

For a long time I felt detached. I have felt so much anger and hatred for a world full of mislead souls. My soul has carried a vendetta against itself and all its hate forever, and it has finally started to execute its plans. The raging idiot I used to be, I feel is slowly peeling away, like an extra skin. I am leaving behind an old "me" and bringing in the new. It is refreshing, yet a bit frightening. No more hate. No more lies. No more anxiety.
I just want to search.... for something more than me.

Just Accept It

Look around you. Do some research about your surroundings. The molecules in the air, the complexity of the very cells that make us human, the vast space around us that is so intricate down to the most minute detail. There are dimensions, depths, and seasons. All of this science that acts as the very skeleton that allows the life to successfully and flawlessly function. To make the statement that we, as humans, are simply a bag of nerves and cells, with no spirit, would be nothing less than ignorant. The lack of proof of something more, or something outside the physical 3 dimensional plane we exist on, is hidden in the tiniest details. Proof has been ignored for 1000s of years before modern sciences and research existed. People just had a sense, or an internal knowledge that there is simply something MORE. Whether or not you believe in anything does not change the fact that there are signs whispering in your ear everyday in the little details, that it is not all an accident. Just accept it: there is more than we wanted to admit.

Omnipresent

Living forever has been fantasized in the minds of every soul on this planet at some point in their life. Some people are obsessed with the idea of immortality. Personally, I have pondered the idea of living through generations and watching humans advance over the years. It would be interesting to see the changes of humanity, and record the regression/progression of the many countries, territories, and divisions as time passes. Give this topic some serious thought. You will be shocked to realize the barriers you could break by freeing yourself from the boundaries of time. Simply amazing.

polyphasic sleep schedule, day one

It is the first full day of my new sleeping routine.  Honestly, I don't feel too much different than usual. My only complaints, is slight sensitivity and a sort of lack of focus.  I am running on about 2 hours of sleep right now, so I am very surprised at how well I feel so far.  I don't want to get over confident though, so I am planning on the worst.... after all, it is only day one.  One more thing I have been trying, is a very rich and healthy diet throughout the beginning of the transition of monophasic sleep to polyphasic sleep.  I think foods high in protein and carbs should provide a decent amount of energy, giving me a very much-needed boost of energy throughout the day.  My next nap is planned for 6 pm tonight, and will last until 6:30 pm.  More updates tomorrow.

Uber (super) man sleep schedule

Well, it seems I have stumbled upon a new sleep system, known only as the uberman sleep schedule. What it is, is basically getting 2 hours of sleep a day, but getting quality sleep from this short time period. Essentially, you are making a little rest go a long way. The idea of it is to get 20 to 30 minutes of sleep every 4 hours you are awake. When you sleep on a normal schedule with 6 to 8 hours a night, you normally enter REM sleep. REM sleep (rapid eye movement) sleep is quite literal. Your eyes shake rapidly back and forth. In this short period of sleep, your brain begins to rejuvenate itself, along with your body, making you feel rested. With all this being said, you are probably wondering how you can feel rested if you are only getting series of 30 minute naps each day. Well, the secret is to trick your brain into entering REM sleep right away. See, what happens is, over time, your brain begins to realize that it is not getting the normal 8 hour sleep pattern it is used to. So, what can it do? It has only one choice: compensate. After about 3 days of the uberman, and your brain is about to lose it... So it begins to adjust. REM sleep gets pushed closer to the beginning of your sleep, instead of 4 hours into resting. About 10 days in, you will start feeling a little better. One month in, and you should feel better than ever. In fact, with the perfected schedule, you could be getting up to 2 hours of REM sleep each day. This is twice as much as most people. Well, I am going to give this my best shot and continue to record all of my feelings and emotions each day. Hopefully I can successfully increase my waking life by up to 9 years, or at least get really good at video games in the next month or so... Wish me luck

Through the eyes of a dirty child

A man sits, stairing aimlessly out the window. He can see the youthful, beautiful girl achieving the most impossible feats. The man, on the inside, is just as scared and fragile as a baby. He feels burned and scarred from the battles he fought in the past. He is a bastard child, alone and confused. Staring out the window looking past the exterior of the little girl, he sees what truly lies in her heart. Sadness and loneliness fill her, leaving her once gorgeous eyes, gray and lifeless. If she only knew how much he loved her, and the hope she brought him. But, the world they live in tries unceasingly to snuff out the last spark of prosperity in the little girl's heart. The man knows she will survive... The girl knows the man will heal...
They both know that the scars will always be visible for all to see though. Will they be accepted, even with their flaws?

Fear: The Universal Roadblock

What if there was a way to completely erase the fear we carry in our lives.  Now, when I say fear, i am talking about something more than just the adrenaline induced anxiety you feel when an unexpected, loud noise goes off.  I am talking about the fear of going against the flow of the mainstream society.  Fear of disagreeing and having your own original opinions and views.  Speaking your mind, for some, is more frightening than jumping off a 60 story building. If we can tame the raging battle inside us that keeps us from saying what we really think, maybe we can make a little more progress of having a successful life.  I am finding that appeasing people can give instant gratification, but leaves an aftertaste so bitter, that you lose sleep over it.  From now on, I am going to be brutally honest and verbalize my feelings every time I see an opportunity.  Those of you facing the same fear as me, stand the fuck up for yourself and say what you feel.  Say what you mean, and mean what you say.... and say it without fear.

The irreversible effects of sleepless nights

I am unbelievably tired, in every meaning of the word. Quite literally and even hypothetically. I honestly believe if you live a life without taking long breaks, you will slowly ruin yourself. Humans are amazing, but definitely have limits. Now, time for a long nap so I can function to my full ability. Resting for success? Sleeping to prosper? Seems somewhat contradictual, but possibly the key to thriving...
Who's to say...?

Day number one

To be honest, I have always heard people mention blogging and instantly, my brain comes to the conclusion that this person has their head in the clouds.  The more I look around at my friends and their lifestyles, the more I want to record what I notice.  What better way to do it than keeping a journal online?  Well, here is to you weird-o blogger guy stereotype!  One more strange guy to record his ideals on the internet...